Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Sunday, July 29, 2012

The Lovely Bones


Maybe I ever wanted to leave, but I try to hold it
Maybe we've got so many fights and tears
But we always get way out
And we've got so many reason to break up,
But we won't everything to ends
Because I realized, 
The love I feel inside,
 is a lot much more than the pain I feel
And the sadness we've felt,
means nothing compared with happiness we feel
And you see, there's so many differences
From the way we take pictures, until the way we talk


"And I'd rather stay with him with all the things he did right, 
than leave him only by one thing he did wrong"
- The Vow

Perubahan Cintaku


Saat pertama bertatap mata
Kumerasa tumbuhnya getar cinta
Keraguan tak tergambar kata
Kau akan merasakan yang sama

                   Kucoba tuk menyendiri
                   Menganalisa apa maksud hati
                   Namun tlah lama tak ada yang terjadi
                   Dan ku mendam rasa dalam peti

Suatu hari kau berdiri
Membuat jantung terasa terhenti
Kau berkata aku berarti
Dan memintaku jadi kekasih hati

                   Berlalulah masa-masa indah
                   Dan datanglah masa pelatih tabah
                   Semua terasa serba salah
                   Namun aku tak sanggup tuk marah

Akupun meminta petunjuk padaNya
Mencari tahu mengapa dirinya
Membuat hati penuh tanda tanya
Tak tahu apa yang terjadi padanya



- Nurlia Arina Dewi
Jakarta, 24 Juli 2012

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

I won't demand

I wonder why did you change
Or maybe it's just my feelings
But now seems you really busy
And never have any time for me

I won't demand to be your number one
I won't demand to always get your attention
I won't demand to tell me that I'm right
I won't demand to be with you everytime

I won't to tell that I miss you that much
I always insist you to be with me all this time
It's really hard for me
It's hard to face you're not even here

But I can't understand your mind
The way you treat me?
It just different in school and messages
I don't know what's wrong
 
I appreciate your business and I'm proud
I won't leave, and I never will
I just rather loving you than anyone else
I just rather have you that loved by anyone else

I just miss... us?

Monday, July 23, 2012

bubebu

This is a sad story.
Again, about me.
I have a work. actually it isn't
It called as a commitment.
I've took before, then I must do it well.
First time, I think it's not really hard.
Second thought, I still agree that I can handle
Now, with saying NO REGRET
I got so many things to do, with too little time
and plus, no certainty.
I'm not trying to complain.
and fyi, I'd never wanted to.
Because, I've promise myself
To do everything's better than before
I've promised to everyone
That I could fix the old mess.


Sincerely,
tired girl a.k.a nurlia arina

Sunday, July 22, 2012

10 Things I hate about you


I hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you much it makes me sick;
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

confusedddd

I just don't understand what happens with me in this last few days.
I just feels like I lost my humanity. But not that's not what I exactly mean.
I just feels like I'd never be good enough in everybody's eyes.
I don't know how can I feel this, But it is true.
I hate that I'm too sensitive, I've told you before.
But day by day, I just feels like I'm being forgotten. Replaced.
I don't want to be selfish
But who's the one in this world, which like being forgotten?
When everybody around him/her, but they just suddenly disappeared.

True?

Monday, July 16, 2012

Hexa C + Triple B

so, after I'm studying in elementary & junior high school, I just found out that I just had

SIX TIMES IN "C" CLASS when I'm SIX YEARS STUDYING
 
THREE TIMES IN "B" CLASS when I'm THREE YEARS STUDYING




Awesome Enough, Man?;-)

Friday, July 13, 2012

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gaksuka jadi org terlalu sensitif:'(:'(

Having A Coke with You by Frank O'Hara

Having a Coke with You
is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, IrĂșn, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I’m with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o’clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles
and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them
I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it’s in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven’t gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn’t pick the rider as carefully
as the horse
it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Snow White and the Huntsman

This is my last favorite movies, after all this time. Kristen Stewart played very good and excellent and Chris Hemsworth is really handsome. I know it's kinda late, but for you who haven't watch this movie, I guarantee you won't regret if you  watch this movie, SOON!

Monday, July 9, 2012

numbness.

don't know.

don't know.

don't know.

don't know.

don't know.

numb.

numb.

numb.

numb.


It's feels like I'm the troublemaker, I'm the one who always make some noisy, some bad condition. It seems like I always ruining a good moment. I'd never wanted to ruin, but it just comes to my mind. and ya know I often to say everything what comes to my mind. It's hard to avoid, but I don't know. I don't feel sad, glad, bad, good, happy, excited, I just feel numb. I feel nothing. I feel empty. I don't need some sympathy. NO. I NEED.ABSOLUTELY. But I don't know the reason why I need it. I - JUST - FEEL - NUMB. 
Oh, Yeah, if Lady Antebellum rather hurt than feel nothing at all,
I'd rather feel nothing at all, than feel hurt. because sometimes, I got hurt too much, then I feel numb.






Saturday, July 7, 2012

Who's fighting?

A lonely and empty road
Which I've drive alone
Feels like I'm the only one who's fighting
Am I that selfish?

And now, I'm on the pavements
Waiting for you to find, to care and to come
But there's only one tree standing alone
Maybe to wait a bird to be friends
Or just to keep the sadness

Now, I'm riding home 
Because I know you'll never come there
Am I the only one who's fighting?
To keep the things unchanged

Is it just some illusions?
Or is it true that I've been trying that hard?
But I hope you've ever take a part
To keep fight for me

It's sad, knowing you a moodbooster
It's sad, knowing you a moodbreaker
That's never success to hate you
And I bet that this heart always forgives